Life of an Indecisive Girl

random update

2009-01-25T00:37:00.002+08:00

random random..

today (since itz already past 12am) 's new year eve. another year passed.. some updates:)

Academic: Struggling like shit for FM and Accounting.. goodness.. i feel like Physics all over again.. u know where ur filled with question marks regardless of how many times u reread ur lec notes and textbook and u know that ur really hopeless in it when u see tutorial answers but still dun understand them.. pathetic.. oh well.. shall try my best and try to keep a teeny weeny more optimistic since my life will be filled with unhappy things over and and over again.. think i shud get used to it by now huh.. Bus law seems fun (relative).
New year's here but contemplating on whether to bring my textbooks around since i'd just rot in ppl's house anw..:/

Life: Aherm attached..

Busy: Filled with dance dance and more dance. Chronological order: Chingay, Hall Dance, JDC Fusion, JDC AH Li Lang( CHinese Dance), Zhang's dance meng(4). These are the dance items i'm currently involved in in NTU. Had dance prac from MOn to Sat everyday last week.. best..
but i'm still not getting lighter.. damn..
Other than dance, there's FOC bus mag.. feel so ineffecient.. blooody hell.. hope we'd do a good job though.. can the flower ppl pls reply me asap!!!!!

rant ran rant.. tutorials tutorials readings readings..

thank goodness my darlin is an optimistic person.. prevents me from falling into the black hole.. keeps me sane..

on a happier note, went dance this morning then to Chinatown then to Clark Quay then to Reunion dinner.. wahaha.. superwoman.. quite tiring budden felt/am feeling quite happy:)

okie. tired. shall chiong tutorial tml.. Eunice is back!!! mwahahaha.. budden she now types her msgs in Chinese my goodness.. (since she went China for internship for five months)

realise my entry is like damn incoherent and jumbled up.. lol.. sorry budden a large part of my brain has already gone into hibernation mode.. till next time!! Happy Chinese Niu Year:)

2008-11-09T16:37:00.003+08:00

waa bloody hell. i feel so fuckingly stressed up. feel so helpless cuz i know i've ten thousand things to study but insifficient time to do so. feel so helpless cuz i've gt totally zero confidence for the exams that are coming up. wat the hell. i've gt a feeling that even working hard may not guarantee good results. wats even worse tt i'm not working hard enough. sat burnt up cuz of dance and tuition. and then today burnt cuz i'm so tired i can't concentrate. and then i think so much when i try to sleep that i wake up feeling even worse cuz i dun feel better plus i've wasted my freaking time sleeping. shit.

aaaarrrggghhh. ranting cuz i hope i'd feel better after this. can't wait for freaking exams to finish. dance performance. dance exams. scchool exams. tuitions... am i getting weaker? used to be able to cope with so much in the past. was totally incontrol of my time and commitments.. wats happening. getting dumber maybe. aiya. watever.

hate to bitch but yea. watever la. getting back to my studies already. suck.

appropriateness of expectancy theory

2008-10-20T20:10:00.003+08:00

damn demoralised.

got back my OB case analysis today and i got a freaking B. worst in my group. thats when expectancy theory and equity theory comes into play. demoralising. ...

feel like shit these days. no mood to study. dun feel good about school. dun really feel belonged.
maybe i think too much. but.. u can't fault me for trying too hard. think that's the problem.. i'm trying too hard..

on the other hand.. fairytales.. i see it happening to some of my friends.. will it ever happen to me? same things keep repeating over and ovcr again.. maybe it's my fault.. i protect myself too hard..

when will i be able to break away from this feeling... it's starting to kill me.. having to watch whatever i do and say.. having to do things that i dun feel like doing.. yearning for things that i can't have and throwing away things that i have.. wanna be a carefree person.. emo bad..

haha

miss my friends.. dreamt of kang, kee, karyn juz now.. sad that in order to lead u happier life in the future we're living in so much unhappiness now.. irony..
i miss tj dance.. i miss zhe ya and nadine especially..
i miss regina my darlin dance partner.. miss her bad.. miss the comfort and closeness we've shared for the past ten or more years.. why did we lose it? the best dance partner ever.. same moves same timing chemistry unbeatable.. hope she's well..

tons of work waiting for me.. know that many others are having it worse than me.. hold on everyone but for how long more.. this is gonna happen over and over again.. a never ending cycle.. what's the point?

haha.. why so emo? i dunno.. maybe due to too long period of lack of sleep.. incoherent.. but i'm somewhat glad.. too serious half of the time.. caring more about what others think than what i think..

tsk tsk..

enough of emo-ing.. stats tutorial anyone?

ps. anyone knows the meaning of life can tell me? :/

Emo

2008-10-19T02:07:00.002+08:00

I blog..
Glad we met out tonight. The right decision apparently.
Tied up some loose nots.. Din noe we had so many.. lol. But
Really glad we did..

Thanks for understanding..
Thanks for not running away..
Thanks for listening to me..
Thanks for being so patient..
Thanks for being willing to open ur heart..
Thanks for complaining about wat i did..
Thanks for being my friend all over again..

Hurt we've gone through, misunderstandings, it's been a gruelling four years..
We took four years to reach where we are today..
I'm glad we made it.. Apparently we've grown quite a bit..

Hope the emotional cycles are evened up. For now..
:)

Nothing else to say but a million and one thanks for tonight.
And finally really. Thanks for accepting and understanding my decision..
No tears:)

2008-05-06T21:54:00.005+08:00

me, shell, eunice in e cab (1st day!!)

three of us in tut-tut:)

sizzler and my medium
(love their salad whahaha)

me and my shou cheng~ betty booop!!

photo in the very fu gu toilet

(1st day dinner)

lol. yes yes i'm blogging surprise surprise. :)

had light cough and flu last tues i think so i gt lazy and then decided to take leave from work. budden unexpecedly the cough and flu came full blown the next day i went to work and it/they never left till today. din wanna waste money so decided to be my own doc/my mum decided to be my doc so i started eating some brown cough medicine tt i tink all of u shud have eaten at least once in ur whole life. yea so anw it din work and my chest started to feel kind of tight whenever i breathe so i've decided to see a doctor. tml. haha. it kind of freaked me off and i'm worried i'd end up with lung cancer or faint suddenly in the mrt so i guess a trip to e doc is necessary huh. anw i dun feel like workin so yea. :)

gonna be bit random today cuz it's been a long time since i blogged and der seem to be alot of things in my mind i wanna sae. yea. so anw today's apparently michelle chua's birthday. lol. apparently i forgt to call and sing 'happy birhthday' to her like i intended to. no excuses. yea so anw it wasn't until she called me and asked me: do u remember wat day is it today ? did e realisation hit me. lol! we're quits! haha..

went thailand er think two weeks ago with michelle and eunice:) the three of us slept in the same room(in my uncle's house) and poor michelle had to sleep on the floor. lol. but she seemed quite happy doing that so haha i din attempt to invite her to share our bed. lol. think e toilet's gonna break down after the our excessive usage all of a sudden. haha. bought alot of clothes. din bother to count. three bags. one purse. one belt. two pairs of shoes and of course lingerie! lol. ate far too much over there. couldn't resist it since the food was good and like damn bloody cheap. so too bad. din even bother to control myself so yea. no one to blame for my erm slight weight increase. haha.

anws above are some of the pics taken in thailand:)

so tt brings me to e next pt. apparently i'm trying to lose weight. again. since someone pointed out tt i've grown fatter thank you very much. seriously tries u noe. budden met up with my frenz for dinner on sat and sun. then boss treated us to pizza and kfc for lunch yst. nearly succeeded today since i ate healthy fish porridge for luch and healthy yu pian tang jia fan (fish soup plus rice) for dinner. budden e big plan failed once i walked pass and then into e bakery. haha. finished a whole yam bread immediately after that. very yummy but it's left me with guilt:(

sad life.. haha.

ok enuff of food. trying to decide between nbs and smu business.. pros and cons for both.. budden seem to be a bit afraid of smu.. anyone gt any suggestions? which one'd be better for me? blehz..

and lastly before i go immerse myself in my bang bang tang, for those who are damn bored and'd like to share my interest(wahahaha) go youtube and type 敖犬 (ao quan) k? have fun haha. bubbye!

2008-01-20T13:04:00.000+08:00

pictures from our outing to pasir ris beach. ( farewell for joe and weicheng and to their hair as well.. awww...) ok i'm tired. haha. adios!

2008-01-19T23:16:00.000+08:00

hi ppl pai seh. haha.

feelin emo today.

anws just a quick update. currently working as a waitress in a new cafe restaurant called Fresh Origin which is somewhere between clarke quay and raffles mrt. monday to friday. sat is reserved for dance. school dance in the morning then tutor my cousin then dance at NAFA. sunday's rest day. talkin bout school dance, we(alumni) are gonna put up 2 items for this year Reverie IV. gonna be on the 22nd March 2008, a sat. come watch kkz? haha. love dancing with the TJ dancers. we rock man.

gonnna fall sick soon i think. weak body plus too many late night- early morning combo. down with a sore throat which will most prob translate into a cough tml. oh well.

mind's in a twirl right now. not one who can act well. dun even know what i want. never and not able to understand. when will this ever come to a close? mum talked to me about it. asked me not to be foolish. shall try to work on it. not easy.

oh ya and lastly, merry x;mas to all who tagged. haha. sorry for late reply. lol. just in case i forget i have a blog again, happy new year to all! gong xi gong xi gong xi ni ah!

2007-12-05T21:17:00.000+08:00

hi ppl i'm back! haha.. si hui fu ran.. actually wanted to stop blogging already since i'm soo lazy budden was reading other ppl's blog and then my laziness seemed to have disappeared temporarily.. lol..

omg! everyone's getting so emo these few days.. especially my classmates.. lol.. maybe it's cuz 12/06's largely made up of scholars and when ppl leave there's a high prob tt we wun be seeing them again... budden i dun seem to and can't seem to feel much.. no surge of happiness when we were eating the $43 lunch buffet with e class nor an immense sadness that threatens to wash me away when prom ended.. all of it juz seemed like a dream.. wonder when i'll wake up from it..

lol.. emo!! budden durin times like tt i'd ask myself wat the hell's wrong with me? i've gt everything tt an average person can possibly have.. a loving family, wonderful mum who takes me shoppin and cares so so much for me, a brother whom i can laugh with, bestest friends in my life (u noe who u are), a sheltered life, no experience of being bullied except for being laughed at for being err slightly chubby, e ability to dance and brains enuff to at least get into a jc. apart from a missing bf i've gt practically everything and i still get into these temporary bout of depression.. wth..

haha.. okie enuff of sad stuffs.. prom ended yesterday.. felt soooo out of place when i stepped into marina mandarin.. a sea of black sia.. for ten mins kee and i din dare to step into e crowd la.. lol.. oh yea budden i love my hair! wahaha.. e highlights rock man! yay.. although it cost $75.. mama's money.. so xin tong she had to spend so much money on me.. budden it's ok shall work hard to earn more money so tt can send them on tours in e future.. haha.. yay.. not bad.. i have at least one goal in life.. lol.

oh yea b4 i forget i'd really like to thank yy (ah tong) for helping with my make up yesterday.. she's damn pro with e mascara la.. haha.. and thank you all those who took pics with me.. thank kee for caring so much about details tt may seem minor but matters alot (kbox cum going home ordeal yesterday night). poor girl cried yesterday.. felt so helpless but hope things will turn out ok for you soon darlin.. in e meantime have faith yea? loves!!

haha ok actually alot of things to blog about budden i'm getting tired once again.. lol.. gd night! back to bang bang tang!! haha rocks!

2007-09-23T00:05:00.000+08:00

haha.. yay.. i'm blogging.. i'm so lazy but guess everybody's used to it.. lol..

okie err updates.. prelim juz ended yesterday.. yay!!! wahaha.. so i've decided to slack till sunday then all the muggin starts again... lol.. we can do it! blah.. anw back to prelims.. chem paper sucked big BIG time.. horrible! for the first time in my life i couldn't finish the chem paper 1 ok.. left with think 8 more qns when time was up.. wth! bo bian.. anyhow shade lohz.. haiyo.. and ppl said that the back qns are apparently the easier ones.. well done!!

haha budden i've gotten over it for the time being.. went for NUS dance concert at UCC on friday night.. not bad la the standard.. many strong dancers budden whats with the sexy costumes that ostracise ppl with relatively err.. fleshy tummies.. baahx!!

haha yea by the way.. i've juz gotten back from CG outing.. Sa, YY, Cheryl Lim, ah hong, rachelle, ah lin and shell. and do u noe wat happened? haha.. six of us wore black and white while the other two wore blue! so cute right!!! haha.. we went Central for dinner, took some photos along the romantic river and then ended up at the whole stretch of road that were made up of pubs.. haha.. oh my god.. i love the place.. the ambience is like so freakin good and classy.. waa.. haha... yay then we went to this pub(i forgot the name) for a drink.. lol.. michelle and i decided to share and so she proceeded to order this blue drink called 'i love u, u love me" LOL! haha.. shell din like it though and we agreed that ours tasted the worse among all.. loved chery's order.. tasted like lychee haha budden i forgot the name.. haha.. great place.. and i tink i wun forget it ever since it's the first time i've been into a pub.. waa.. so grown up sia.. and the men didn't bother to check our age lehz! amazing.. haha.. k la.. quite noobish budden who cares... there's a first time for everythin rite.. :)
mama was quite worried and asked me not to drink again.. lol.. say may jiu hou luan xing. lol..

yea.. tats all for today.. or this month i think.. haha.. sweet dreams~

2007-08-10T23:01:00.000+08:00

was looking at my friend's friendster and all of a sudden, i realised that almost everyone's changing around me.. no londer the person whom i thought i knew.. so far away.. so far that i felt scared lookin at their photos cuz the more i looked the more i realised that she wasn't who i thought she was.. yea i know.. u cant expect nothin to change so many years later but still.. i'm scared and sad and feel so lonely.. what the hell.. i hate it when i feel like this but can they stay the same pls? i hate having no faith in friendship.. it makes me scared and lost.. maybe i should juz bar myself from friendster.. then i can leave in my own world and believe wat i wanna belive in.. baahx..

emo nights suck..

2007-08-04T22:34:00.000+08:00

haha. wow it's been two months.

lol... time really flies.. we handed over soon after Reverie and and then finished up our 'last dance' at SAJC's dance concert Rapture.. i manged to dance this time round.. haha.. yea.. acually it's all thanks to zheya la.. if it wasn't for her insistence tt i dance this time round i wouldn't have this chance.. :)

yeah anw prelim's really near and u can feel it in in school.. it's scary man.. budden i slacked the whole day today and met up with darlin Eunice beside the swimmin pool. apparently she wanted to sun tan budden i refused so i stayed under the shade.. wahaha.. yay i love talkin to her.. :) oh ya so i was slackin and den now i'm feelin damn guilty but i'm too lazy to study now so who cares.. whaha..

hmmz.. only bout 4 months left till end of JC life.. yaaayyyy!!!! lol.. i love my frenz budden seriously JC's a damn good way to fall into depression.. squeezes you dry.. can't wait for the end... :/

2007-06-08T21:40:00.000+08:00

right. it's been a very erm eventful month. haha.

sprained my right ankle once again one month ago (29 days ago to be exact). haiz it was pure stupidity and sueh-ness. was chasing after someone because of some reverie tix admin stuff and didn't notice the damn drain. didnt cry then, just felt a bit numb cuz i didn't know wat to do. only when i saw sharon later ouside the LT did reality hit me. i cried. haha. not cuz of e pain but cuz i was so afraid tt i wudn't be able to take part in e concert.

anws, e sprain this time round was much worse den last year. i could still limp around last year and still managed to perform on heels for reverie 2 even tho i sprained it juz 2 days before the concert. baahx. so i went to sinseh no. 1 whom i suspected made it worse cuz i seriously couldn't walk after tt. den i went to get an x-ray. doc said i would most likely be able to recover in one month's time so i gt my crutches and proceeded to waiting for ankle to heal. however apparently stupidity hit me three more times in the following weeks. i mangaed to fall thrice on my crutches. wasn't really my fault. twice cuz the floor was damn bloody slippery and one more time cuz my arms gave way when i was going up the stairs with the crutches. unreliable things. can someone smart out there go invent some crutches tt ain't so dangerous? baahx! yea. so even tho' i went regularly to sinseh no. 2 who was quite goo actually, i didn't manage to heal in time for my dance concert (reverie 3).

ended up as the audience for the first part and den had to go backstage durin interval for the finale. den shimin and mar passed me my present backstage, consisting of a set of pink+ white pretty clothes in a white bag/purse ( cuz they wanted me to blend in with them since they were all wearing pink and white for the finale item). thank you sm, mar, kee, yh, wy, c.lim,fanny for it! :)

crutches are troublesome too. couldn't carry my own bag and file so my frenz had to help me carry them, look for classrooms, carry my crutches when i no longer need them, walk the longer with me so tt i could use the one and only lift in school, wait with me for my parents, wait for me to arrive in school, help me to the toilet, help me buy food, and even carry me up and down the stairs.. to all my dear friends (u noe who u are) who've helped me in one way or another, thank you so so very much.. i really do appreciate it and i'm really sorry for bringing so much trouble to all of u.. :(

oh ya and thank you to the dancers who still believed in me and did not leave me out altho' i didn't manage to dance and practice and toil with all of u to make this reverie a success.. ...

oh well enuff emo-ing for today..

2007-04-26T20:55:00.000+08:00

we got Gold.

I'm sad.. But i love all my dancers and thank you all for giving ur all that day. We know ourselves that we've done well and that's enuff.. ya?

2007-04-08T22:22:00.000+08:00

wow. its been near a month since i last blogged.. haha.. i'm so lazy i cant stand it myself.. :)

anws life's still e same alternating between mugging and dancing.. 've been trying to go on diet for the past two weeks after zaki said sth tt almost made puke( u'll find out soon enuff wat tt is altho' i pray hard tt u wun since it's not confirmed. wahaha) yeps so i cut down on my titbit intake and resolved to do crunches daily but in e end it turned out tt i'm gaining weight instead.. -_- so i'm contemplating whether to juz give it up but i tink i'd better not risk it huh..

right.. went out for dinner tt day with sa at mc( fine mc goes again my whole dieting plan but dinner is different from titbits rite). we talked and talked and did nothing besides tt.. lol.. i love tokin to sa cuz i can be myself.. :) did i mention tt i cried a while back when sa told me tt she couldn't make it to my dance concert comin this May? wahaha.. yay.. so now she's comin.. tears rock man.. can someone teach me how to cry more often? lol.

okie.. Reverie III- Dancer in my Heart presented by TJC MOdern Dance Club ticket sales officially starts this coming Wednesday. Yay! haha.. the concert tt we're all workin our ass off for.. it'll be on 31st May(thurs) 8pm. tix price at 12 or 15 at UCC. anyone interested can come find me! haha..

tts all for today until err.. next month? haha..

2007-03-18T21:34:00.000+08:00

yay.. i'm so happy today cuz i went out for dinner with eunice and michelle.. we went sakae at white sands but apparently its now called Hei Sushi but tts beside e point.. lol.. it may seem u noe like damn no life that we had to go white sands for this once in a lifetime reunion but the three of us have been together for so long that this kind of thing doesn't seem to matter anymore.. haha.. yea man.. i love them so much and life always seems to become so much happier and less sucky when i'm together with them.. they make me feel so loved and belonged and at ease even though i was dressed damn unglam-ly along with my specs.. oh ya and after sakae michelle had to go home so eunice and i went to swensens for ice cream.. wahahaha.. i love eunice.. i love her for listenin to me.. and i love her for acceptin me as who i am.. and i love her for sin-ning with me today although we're both supposed to be on a diet.. haha.. muack!

yep yep all in all the one week holiday was quite fun and relaxed apart from e dance practices and brain wrecking choreography that i had to finish.. 1206 cg outing on tues was fun.. and hot cuz we went seoul garden at bugis for dinner.. haha. yea man.. freakin ex but e company made it all worth it.. we took alot of pics and i only managed to ka-po some for the time being.. for the fuller version pls visit kee's blog.. haha... everyone turned up in their best and the attendance was good too! haha 16 came out of e 25 in my class.. money collecting was disastrous and in e end we juz gave up andd dumped all e money to e cashier to sort it out.. lol.. i seriously love my class.. wouldn't be able to survive horrible JC life without it/them.. haha..

e 16 of us who went to seoul.. i love this pic!! wahaha..

i dunno why but u seem to be avoiding me.. i'm sorry for whatever i may have done.. ..

2007-02-23T22:17:00.000+08:00

baahx.. i tink i'm dead sa.. missed zaki's choreography juz now and gonna miss it agian tml.. say byebye to syf man.. lol.. but i'm not gonna think so much about it since i know tt i cant do anythin about that and i've learned frm darling kaka to always stay positive.. :) thank you kaka for being such a good role model and talkin to you always make me feel that life doesn't suck that much after all.. :)

i'm falling sick anw.. i tink.. it started out with a sore throat on tues.. and den it evolved into flu today.. horrendous.. actualli havin flu is quite fun since it makes my voice sexy and i used 3 whole packets of tissue today lohz..

wahaha.. and i tink i'm falling in love with ella sia.. so cute.. haha.. yay!

2007-02-11T22:12:00.000+08:00

hmmz.. today's go green day.. we had to perform at e carnival at 11am but had to reach at 7.45am juz to take attendance like wat a move.. e carnival was quite pathetic.. damn miniature and there's like only mostly old folks there.. but heck i enjoyed performin altough my friend said tt it wasn't good. :( so sad can.. ppl always think tt performin's so easy u can juz wack ur butt(pai pai pi gu) and den perform straight away.. baahx!! tts like soooo not true.. hmmph..

there zaki tml for 4 and 1/2 hrs.. tink we'll all be date within two hrs la.. lol... lets see wats gonna happen man..

u were e only one with whom i could be who i wanted to be.. tts why..

2007-02-02T23:24:00.000+08:00

oh my god.. this feeling sucks totally.. i feel so helpless and stupid.. i'm seriously tryin my best to cope with everythin at e same time.. i really am.. but my studies are suffering and i feel so stupid... mama asked if it is because i dance too much and am not trying working hard enough.. ... i am u know.. i try and try but seem to get nothin in return... wat the hell am i supposed to do... i'm trapped in this whole thing and cant seem to find no way out.. maybe i'm juz stupid.. i dunno.. can this sucky and miserable life juz pass quick?

2007-01-26T23:14:00.000+08:00

lol.. okie.. i'm sorry i wasn't slacking k.. i was juz so feakin busy for the past few weeks that i had neither the time nor excess energy to on my com.. baahx.. life sux in JC 2 man.. sucks big time.. mug mug mug.. plus having to dance four days a week is putting a strain on me.. I CANT COPE!!
three hrs of zaki on mon. 2 hrs of miss wee plus one more hr for e performance on go green day.2 hrs of marlene's self choreo prac on fri plus 3 hrs of zaki right after tt. my self choreo prac on sat morn for 2-4 hrs plus one half hrs of dance class in NAFA after tt.. how many freakin hrs is tt man.. and besides all those i have to look for music and i cant pon dance cuz i'm e dance cap. wat e hell!! :(

sorry everyone especially kee if i'm bitchy and moody all this time.. i cant control myself but i shall try to rein in some of my bitchiness kkz.. lol..

can e time pls fly so tt i can get past this horribly horrible year and off to my wonderful life in uni? baahx! Jia you everyone..

2007-01-01T23:21:00.000+08:00

wahaha.. the first two pics were taken on sa's b'dae. 20 dec '06. lol.in billibombers.. err did i spell correctly? those yellow things are fries by the way.. lol..
then the next two pics are ones that i took in hong kong.. lol.. lsee.. i'm not lazy ok.. bleh..

once upon a time i would have felt as if it's the end of the world if u had said that.. once upon a time.. ...its been too long anw..

2006-12-29T00:13:00.000+08:00

haha.. yay.. i'm back..once again. but this time from Hong Kong.. wahahaha..

ok. this is called forced enthu-ness cuz it really wasn't as fun as i thought it wud be... disneyland was small.. tired out cuz we had to wake up early everyday..shopping was limited..err thats about it cuz my brain's not workin v well rite now.. hmmz.. a few people in my tour group said i look like a sec three student.. ha.. see.. so i dun look like auntie k.. hmmph..

baahx. school's starting soon and i'm starting to get worried over the usual things like upcoming orientation performance, my choreo dance item, vectors, physics test, econs holiday hw.. etc..sianz!!

oh ya.. and thnx to all those who sent me ur blessings on christmas day.. i am so so sorry i couldn't reply cuz of the HK trip.. Merry belated christmas to all of u too!! haha..

2006-12-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

lol.. i'm back from KL..

bought so little things this time round la.. bit disappointing.. here is a list of wat i bought: err.. three bags.. three pairs of shoes/slippers.. one shirt.. very very nice err ineer wears.. one pants.. one sweater for hong kong.. a belt.. liquid eyeliner.. and dvd.. wahaha.. quite little rite.. compared to like last few years.. :( think its cuz although it was a four day trip we managed to only get two full days of shopping.. with all the driving around and the waiting for one another part.. but my foot still ached at the end of third day.. massaged it while watchin dvd at the hotel den ok le.. lol..

oh ya and bought darlin sa's present.. hope she'll like it.. :)

hmmz.. i'm so dead cuz i cant find any good music for my item for next year's dance production.. may have to cancel it if i cant find by end of this month.. haiz.. anyone gt any good music or sources..? blehz..

2006-12-03T22:33:00.000+08:00

lol.. damn.. i was seeing how much longer i can stall.. life's passing by in a blur and its already been two weeks since i blogged.. lol..

err basically i've been quite busy with dance since after the chalet. took part in a 7 freakin days modern dance course in NAFA. wa kao.. it was hell man.. danced consecutively for at least 3 hrs per day for 7 days so my whole body ached for 7 full days.. wat a move.. but my weight doesn't seem to go down at all u noe.. maybe i'm developin muscles tts why.. wahaha...

oh yes.. went sentosa that thursday.. i tink.. expected quite a lot of ppl but in e end there was only me, kee, kiang, jean, huiting, joe, weibin.. but i love them so its ok.. haha.. wasn't in a good mood tt day so u can refer to e others' blog for details.. :)

den e. went to singapore eye centre to perform on 2nd dec. which was yesterday.. lol our audience was like 90% old folks who are there for free eye checks but never mind.. i quite enjoyed it.. we played alot of wat harry call ' no brainer' games although he lost like 5mins after the game began.. lol..

ok.. i'm lazy.. shant continue bloggin.. till next time.. lol..

err anw those pics above are some pics taken at sentosa.. wanted to put them at e bottom de but apparently i dunno how to so there u go.. lol.

2006-11-17T23:36:00.000+08:00

haha.. think most ppl from my class (12/06) muz be bloggin about our chalet ba.. :)

i love everythin about it.. e place, e activities, and especially the ppl...

thank you all who worried for me when i fell sick halfway through it.. i seriously tried to pull thru it but still failed in e end and had to ask mama bring me home.. so sorry.. but at least u all had one less person to fight the haagen dazs ice cream with rite.. lol.. anw e next day when i woke up i realised tt almost all who were in e chalet had sent me an sms e night before.. lol. my phone juz kept vibrating can.. haha.. ... :) thank you..

2006-11-12T23:17:00.000+08:00

went out with me cousins today.. :) we went for klunch and den ate Ben and Jerry.. wahaha... Ben and Jerry cookies and cream is damn nice can!! tink like nicer den hagen lehz... but its freakin ex amd freakin fattening.. lol.. baahx.. but luckily der's dance tml.. zaki!! crap... stressed sia... nadine, zheya, shimin are all not goin to be there lehz... wth... I AM SOO DEAD!! haiyo.. kkz. shall not stress myself up... shall focus on e upcomin chalet instead.. wahaha... it's 12/06 chalet.. frm tues to thurs... love my frenz frm me class so i'm lookin forward to it.. :)

k la nothin to sae le.. except tt i feel freakin stressed up and freakin sianz.. baahx.. and i'm so sad i didn't get to sing duet with me brother in kbox today.. :(

2006-11-07T22:05:00.000+08:00

wahahahahahahaha!!!! i'm finished with op.. lol.. at last man.. i feel so freakin relaxed can.. stupid subject.. glad it's over.. thank you jean for being always there even when we're feeling so damn bloody pissed off and tired.. muacks!! rest well and now u can sleep alll u want.. wahaha.. ur favourite past time. :P

went kbox today after dance prac, with darlin kee yann, kaka, kiang kiang, xinyi, yongyi, pear, lu ying and joe.. actualli din wanna go de lohz.. den tt kiang kiang so scary so bo bian.. lol.. anw thnx girl for listenin to me on our way home.. appreciate it.. really.. kee today bit out of sorts lehz.. tc care dun stress urself out over nothin again k.. ha.. kaka v crazy today can.. but she sing like sooo damn bloody nice i tink i'm falling in love with her can.. lol..

hmmz.. yesterday felt damn tensed up and stressed over op... suck man.. couldn't sleep at night la.. first time shi(1) mian(2) until so jia lat.. horrendous experience..

finally hope tt things will go well for grad night item... haiz.. most ppl like not takin it seriously or is i teach like shit... ... never mind..

tts all for now i tink.. back to my aiqingmuofashi.. lol.. tata!!

2006-11-03T23:34:00.000+08:00

hmmz.. i tink i look ok with hairband wat.. baahx..

tink i'm gonna be a nun.. bu ti tou fa de ni gu.. lol.. michelle chua and eunice ting shud read this.. we decided upon this in wat? pri 5 arhz? or 6? but both of u are breakin this pledge.. i shall uphold it.. wahaha!! at least for now till uni.. lol..

yay.. hope my back heals.. miss being able to do all the dance moves.. blehz..

cant stop eatin nowadays.. absolutely horrendous.. but u noe wat is li bu cong xin? lol.. heck.. hope there's a genie u noe.. den i can make a wish so tt i can eat as much as i want w/o getting fat.. aww...

anw gettin back into reality some ppl cant teach for nuts.. haiz.. serious.. wanted to be u noe unbias and nice and all but.. cmi.. wasted my time today sia..

oh ya thnx to all those who asked whether i was ok. lol... i'm fine.. :)

2 yrs was a long time but at least it's ended.. so nice to have u back as a friend..

2006-11-01T21:44:00.000+08:00

from couple.. to friends..

mutual understanding..

thank you..

2006-10-31T21:50:00.000+08:00

hi ppl. hope u all liked e new choreo.. tink its quite horrendous this time since the bit like quite slow.. chose the wrong song i guess.. but yups.. thanx for e encouragement all e same.. :)

ms wee's lesson was cancelled today.. baahx.. wa lao.. finished carryin e damn bloody big AND heavy radio all e way to sport com den i read e msg la.. dots.. wat a move...

choreo lessons were fun juz now.. haha.. alot of jokes happened la.. and are my moves too diff? no rite.. hmmz.. oh ya.. tt reminds me.. got to look for patnering moves..

hope tt i've made e right decision.

tata

2006-10-30T22:17:00.000+08:00

hmmz.. i suspect i'm havin mild depression.. lol..

damn busy these days lehz.. op la.. irritating lehz. forever like gt loopholes de.. baahx!! den we have this tons of holiday hw.. come on la.. wat type of holiday is this..

reverie III confirmed le.. should be held next year june lohz.. tink it'll be disastrous.. got to start lookin for ideas and videos to aid my choreography le.. haha.. tink i'll be choreographin chinese dance this time.. lol.. hope ppl dun laff their ass off when they see it... oh well.. shan't think too much on tt now since my grad night choreography needs alot of touchin up now..

hope everythin goes on well tml.. :)

2006-10-23T22:35:00.000+08:00

wahaha.. i didn't wanna blog wan lohz.. but ganna scolded by kee yann den bo bian.. lol

kkz.. was depressed this mornin cuz i'm utterly disappointed with me chem results.. and maths too for that matter.. aargh.. actually i'm disappointed with my overall promos result la.. suck.. deprove until dunno like wat..

hmmz its after promos but i dun feel happy i dunno why.. feel so empty.. shrugs.. whatever..

anw i'm nearly done with the choreography.. hope all of u'll like it.. :)

2006-10-19T21:20:00.000+08:00

i'm havin a headache.. wth.. post promos are supposed to be fun and care free and stress free for goodness sake but it seems to be juz e opposite...

blehz.. my choreo seems to be going badly this time.. 4mins.. haiyo.. tts like dunno how many thousands of sixths la.. and i'm now like only stuck at the 36th or sth.. baahx..

anw dun think i did well this time round for my promos.. think i managed to pass all but chem was a bloody letdown.. haiz..

oh ya i'm aching all over.. lol.. think like 90% of us TJ dancers are havin the same aching back la.. but its alreadybeen 2 days and mine doesn't seem to be gettin much better.. haha.. and now my right butt and leg are aching too.. luckily i'm gonna pon chinese dance tml again.. lol..

i'm tired.. life sucks..

2006-10-13T22:19:00.000+08:00

hmmz.. maybe itz because we didn't give each other enuff time to heal and get away from each other..

ttz y we're in such a mess..

a little less confused.. at last..

2006-10-13T20:51:00.000+08:00

haha today was our open house.. had to perform lohz once again.. tink i din dance v well haha cuz i didn't take note of the timing. dance so long le still can wrong timing.. tsk tsk..

ya anw today was damn tiring.. dunno why man.. was like stunned by the end of the day... couldn't really tahan so i ponned chinese dance class. haha.. thats why i'm slackin at home now bloggin lol..

hmmz think i'm goonna start some choreographin for grad night already.. tink its about five mins.. i'm so dead.

actualli wanted to blog yesterday cuz me parents were v nice. went shoppin mith my mama in e afternoon. bought a bag, an anklet and a pair of shoes.. haha.. not bad.. den after tt went eat crabs for dinner.. damn ex.. i feel so guilty can so i'm gonna earn enuff money in e future for me parents to enjoy life.. wahahaha...

okie brain bit dead le.. tata!

2006-10-08T17:22:00.000+08:00

wahaha.. two more days to freedom.. lol.. as if..

anw was overwhelmed by laziness today.. really horrible.. only studied two chaps of chem can.. haiyo.. dunno wat i doin..

hmmz juz a brief update on e exam period since its been such a long time since i last blogged.. lol..

Physics paper sucked.. big time.. i slogged so damn bloody hard for it and in the end... baahx! MCQ was e best man.. i juz flipped.. and flipped.. and flipped e pages.. good..
econs was fine. i tink.
math.. haha.. tried my best la.. tot i was goin to die e day before cuz half e qns i attempted in tys was wrong la..
ya then e last will be chem lohz.. two days from now.. why do all the reactions involve alcohols and ethanols?? suck man.. how am i supposed to remember which one needs alcohol as solvent and which one no need u tell me? baahx!

wth.. tata..

2006-09-28T21:26:00.000+08:00

oh my.. three more days to promos le.. i can feel e mugging atmosphere man.. scary..

juz studied physics today.. quite ok la i guess. made me realise how much i dunno.. haha..

cant wait for promos to end.. den i'll be going to my cousin's house to give her tuition since itz her o's soon.. so fun.. wahaha..

thank you kiang kiang for tagging.. xing fu de nv ren.

haha.. yay.. going kfc for lunch on sat with me family.. so nice e advertisments lohz.. lol..

feelin dam sianz now.. tata..

2006-09-26T22:49:00.000+08:00

i feel sad when i look at other ppl's blog.. dunno y..

life sux once again..

cant seem to feel happy no more.
wat e hell's e problem..

better not fall into e deep dark hole again.
dun tink i can survive it once more..

life sucks.

2006-09-23T21:43:00.000+08:00

Lol and now i'm forced to e tagged by huiting.. bleh..

single or taken?
single.

are you happy wif ur life now?
ok with it i guess except for the pw part..

when you meet the right person, do you fall in lovewith him/her fast?
Love? dun tink so ba..mostly is fatuation nia.

have you ever had ur heart broken?
Lol.. ya.

do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
Huh.. depends on cheat on what la..

would you take someone back if he cheats on you?
Depends ba.. but i hope i wun meet someone who'll do this to me

have you ever talk about marriage with another before?
err. i dunno lehz... bleh.

nope. do you want children?
lol i dun feelleke havin lehz.. but guess its inevitable ba..

how many?
2.

would you ever consider adoption?
maybe ba.. but not very likely i guess

if someone likes you right now,what do you think is the best way to letyou noe his/her feelings?err make frenz first i guess.. otherwise i may tend to avoid tt person. lol.

do you enjoy getting into relationships?
lol.. yes if i wun get hurt to often..

be honest. what is the furtherest thing you and ur ex did?
O_o

do you believe in love at first sight?
not really..

are you romantic?
lol.. i've gt no idea..

do you believe you can change someone?
maybe a bit ba

if you could get married somewhere, where would it be?
lol. never thought of it.. in a hotel? lol.

do you give in easily when you're fighting?
depends on who's right or wrong ba

do you have feelings for someone right now?
dunno lehz.. damn confused right now..

do you ever wished that you could have someone but you messed it up?
hmmz..

haha have you ever broken a heart?
dunno lehz. tink yes.long time ago doh..

if one day ur best fren falls in love wif the person u are deeply inlove wif, what will you do?
if they're both in love den siam lohz.. haha..

are you missing someone right now?
yes

now, you have to ask 5 of ur frens to do this survey in their blogs,write down their names in the list below. tag them in their blogs to let them noe.
(i've decided not to tag others.. hah cuz i'm too lazy.. so anyone who wants juz cope lohz..)

2006-09-16T12:29:00.000+08:00

lol.. oh my.. its been a long long time.. as normal.. lol..

cuz last week was busy watchin jin san shun every night.. its like so damn nice and last four episodes le so CANNOT MISS!! wahahaha.. k so it means tt j.s.s. now finish le which implies tt i'll be able to blog more often nowadays.. lol. i'm sure..

juz realised our group's wr and ppt suck.. seriously.. never mind.. shall juz try our best and not worry too much.. wahaha..

hmmz.. sometimes we shouldn't focus too much on the bad things in our life since there's seriously no end to them.. so why not focus on the good things and juz bite ur teeth and plough on thru the bad ones? think it's all a matter of how u see things.. you can worry and be sad sometimes when ur pmsing or in a damn bloody bad mood but there's always a time when you should juz put all these sadness and err.. zi bei gan behind.. yups.

lol tried to check the thesaurus for a word for zi bei gan but failed.. lol.. so there you go..

i refuse to talk about studies since they make me stressed. haha.

all the madness starts again RIGHT after promos. PW, syf prep, grad night dance prep, dance in NAFA, modern dance course in NAFA, leadership camp, chalets, shopping tour in malaysia, den china.. lol... wahahaha...

2006-09-07T21:54:00.000+08:00

oohoo. went shopping in JB today. haha. bought very few things only lehz.. blehz.. but it was fun la.. we kept eating la.. so i tink i'd better exercise tml.. lol..

i'm so proud today cuz i managed not to buy any shoes .. wahaha.. first time so thrifty sia.. lol.. but actually i admit it's mostly cuz i was forced to be thrifty la. haha.. there was this damn bloody nice heels can!! omg.. but dear mama din allow me to buy it cuz of my ankles.. bleh!! fine.. it better heal by at least dec la.. my two pairs of heels are rotting in the damn cupboard..

juz finish watchin jin san shun.. damn nice!!!!!!! the guy is soooooooooooooo handsome.. tsk tsk..

i feel so guilty for spending so much money on shopping.. i shall aim to earn more money in the future so that my dad and my mum can spend it all they want.. wahahaha...

2006-09-01T23:20:00.000+08:00

haha. okie i was suposed to blog about the performance yesterday but apparently i was too tired to do that when i gt home. so i'm gonna do tt now although i'm tired tonight too. lol.

zaki told us to aim for a "very good instead of a not bad" during out last prac with him and i'm proud to sae that i think we did it. lol.. all the hard work and tiring practices were not up to naught after all. wahahaha.. thank you to all those darlins who shouted for me during the dance.. made me high.. lol..

okie. apparently with all the arguementative we're writing my narrating skill has deproved.. haha.. so i'll get on to wat happened today.

err went out with 12/06 today. went Kbox.. err i sang like shit so i wasn't very happy. lol.. then we went NYDC for tea. haha.. then i slacked about with joe for a while before goin off fer dance in NAFA. danced like shit too and thus i'm in a damn bloody bad mood now. lol..

jean sang bloody well today.. lol.. i'm impressed..

and today think yingxi and wanrong are performin.. wish them all the best! =) i miss them..

i'm feelin damn guilt for not studyin for two days..

and Happy Birthday Wei Bin!! smilez..

2006-08-27T21:47:00.000+08:00

i think that it may be a good thing if u find that u have absolutely nothin to blog about. proves that you're happy with ur life and has nothin to bitch about..

saw jinxuan err.. yesterday. dunno why.. always feel a wave of sadness and loss when i see her.. maybe itz cuz i'm jealous cuz she's gt everythin i lost since wat? three or four years ago.. fine.. maybe its my fault and i did try to do sth about it ok.. but it seems to be too late..

maybe some ppl are meant to stay in ur life and some are juz meant to be passers-by.. should juz live on with i guess.. but i miss those times..

sighs..

2006-08-22T21:57:00.000+08:00

oohoo.. i'm slackin to day again. reached home at about 8 plus cuz had teachers' day tech run rehearsals.. everythin went on quite well i guess.. read thru my phy SPA notes and din feel like doin anythin afterwards.. blehz.. feelin a little guilty la but never mind. shall mug tml right after school. waahaha..

am in a good mood.. lol..

hope darlin sa, shimin and keeyann are ok.. smilez!

2006-08-21T22:35:00.000+08:00

My physics suck. Really suck. This is bad... Think girls just aren't meant for Physics..
Baahx.. tuition..?

Muscles aching. I hate WR. Random..

all alone..

2006-08-17T22:35:00.000+08:00

wahaha. i love the feelin off not doin NAPFA. lol. shi shuang de lohz. lol.

hmmz. demoralized. no longer know wat to do le. i tried my best to make it good but everythin juz seems to go back to wat it was the next practice. worried...

practice again tml. hope everythin goes on well..

can feel a headache comin up..

still 5% left..

should go on diet. but too lazy.. oh well..

2006-08-14T22:42:00.000+08:00

had chem test today. err.. not as bad as i thought it would be i guess.

was unusually quiet this mornin.. didn't feel like talkin.. all cuz of joe la. yesterday night call me den made me miss like five minutes of sleep..

haha.. but in he afternoon was ok le. i learnt how to make straw heart from darlin karyn and then learnt straw star from kiang pin. wahaha.. actualli qite fun lehz. but i think i'm gonna forget everythin like after two weeks. haha..

then came back to school and had zaki in the audi.. he wasn't so scary after all. lol.. tml gt miss wee.. haha.. itz been so long sia.. actualli miss her class..

oh ya.. have been a total slacker today. didn't touch any of my work except for a little of my EoM.. haiyo..

ankle isn't gettin any better.. bad.. and zheya pls take care of ur ankle too kkz..

okie. two mins past bedtime.. nitez!

2006-08-11T23:23:00.000+08:00

wahaha. congrats to me!!

5% left.. i think..

2006-08-10T18:45:00.000+08:00

oh my... i'm so slack today.. i feel so guilty!!! baahx. only studied three chaps of chem test lehz. den after that juz kept reading my book and watchin tv. v bad. haiyo. den i wanted to go swimming like one hour ago. but i decided i was too lazy so i juz hecked. tsk tsk.someone cure my laziness..

wahaha.. i'm feelin quite happy today cuz tml gt dance!! wahaha. yay. i enjoy dance when ms wee and zaki are not comin, and when i'm not in charge of the session. lol.

think we shudn't sms each other for at least two more years. maybe it'll help. haha. tokin directli is so much better. oh my. i'm incoherent.

anw, tml's darlin siti's birthday. :)

yay

2006-08-07T22:55:00.000+08:00

lol. fine. i'm blogging k.

err been a hectic week la. so din have the time and energy to blog. with the due EOM. WR, Chem SPA, was there a math test?, econs test, JTS, and the choreography and cleaning up all goin on withtin e same time.

haven been sleeping well these few days either. think under too much stress. kept dreamin about my previos Dance school and the teachers. there were either dreams tt i forgt e dance steps on stage, was damn slow in learning simple steps or that the children were dancin on a stage without a back support. walao. BAD!!

oh ya. think i hurt my back and my upper part of my thigh cuz i danced too much and stretched too much. so basically now i cant shake my butt too hard and cant do a back bend without feelin like dieing. lol. oh well. but i'll still continue dancin.

okie enuff for now. i miss tokin to lam kee yann. baahx.

And i noe u're readin. take care. be strong.

i'm damn tired. time for bed.

2006-08-02T22:28:00.000+08:00

lol. itz been another one week. wow time flies. eventful week but i'm in no mood to blog since i wrote in my diary today. wahahaha.

fixing the fragile walls once again..

thank you

2006-07-25T22:21:00.000+08:00

hereby i would like to realli thank all the people, especially Lam Kee Yann, who stood by me and smiled throughout the whole choreography no matter how much they think it sucked.

gave me strength since i fall into depression quite easily. lol. sounds wrong. but yeah. thank you! muacks!

confused

2006-07-23T22:14:00.000+08:00

haha. okie. i'm bloggin ok. stop sayin me le. blehz.

err. yesterday was AHS 50th founders' day. yups. actualli din wan go de. budden heard tt juliana, shimin, jem dey all singin.. so go lohz... haha... so had dance before tt in TJ early in e morning. had to finish teachin the last four eights since this comin Tues is the auditions.

yups so after tt met yy b4 climbing up the hill. horrendous. too long never climb le so damn tiring la.. plus my ankle.. tsk tsk.. was aching by e time i reached e top.. haha. but tts beside e point.

met cons and cindy. oh my goodness. cons become so sexy le la. wahahaha. hot man. so chio. lol.

okie anw we watched e concert from e back of e hall. i was screamin my head off when juliana came out can. and subsequently throughout the whole song. haha. damn gan dong can! dey sing until soooo nice. e chord soooo nice.. den all of them like so harmonised and united.. waa.. sometimes really wish tt i'm part of dem too. had a chance to four years ago.. but.. fate i guess..

yups so anw watchin e item made me all confused again. which sucks. aargh.

but anw thanks for the song. shud sing more in e future. thnx for tokin to me too. it's been so long.. but ya i noe. we're juz frenz. haha. smilez!

okie. so i've updated. finally. wahahaha.

horrendous

2006-07-11T22:10:00.000+08:00

haiyo. i so sad today. had ms wee's dance technique lesson today and i danced like shit la! wa lao. cant do double piroutte ( spelled like this?), den keep dancin wrongly somemore. den e legs cant even go past 45 degrees la. sianz. demoralizin... dance cap somemore. this type of standard. so diu lian. baahx...! ... ...

oh ya and yan heng pls take care of ya foot. and to nadine, if u read this, thanks so much for what u said at e busstop. made me feel better. haha. i shall work hard!. :)

2006-07-05T21:08:00.000+08:00

okie. i wanna blog about err... today's wed. oh ya. last saturday.

haha. went out with darlin sa to orchard. actualli sae wanna wear nice nice wan but i tink i look horrendous. haha. ya anw basically went walk around for a while and sa bought a ring in Heeren. damn nice. but my fingers too short so i never buy. lol. den after tt went to eat lunch at n.y.d.c. oh my goodness. it's damn nice can. haha. eat until v happy. onli bad thing is tt e waiters keep hoverin around us den i had to worry about my xing xiang. haiyo. so xin ku. den somemore wind keep blowin den end up with mini leaves in sa's food and flying pamphlets. oh well. e food is nice so everythin was worth it. lol. den sometimes me and sa will juz become silent but itz nice silent. haha. dun tink der's such a phrase la but heck. those who can understand congrats. lol.

and i v unhappy with e school cuz always sae give us half day but in e end is use up more of our time la. wa lao. sae wat fri half dae lessons till 1155. but our lessons already originally ending at 1155 wat. wat sai. den lidat still not enuff. addition to that they still added one hr for dunno wat pw talk. ... crap. and monday... sae wat half dae den onli gt four periodes which will all be pushed back startin frm second period at 1155. but point is we've onli gt four periods anw on normal days la. so now instead of half day we end school like four hours later den usual.. -_- baahx!!

haha. oh ya. i passed my phy!! wahaha. which is damn heng la cuz it was a subject tt i decided to drop for this JCT. lol. what a move.. wahahaha...

okie i'm tired. hope tt time will pass quickly tml. i hate pe.

2006-06-29T21:30:00.001+08:00

lol. wow. okie. since i dun like it when ppl dun update their blog i shall stop slackin and update mine. lol.

hmmz. today juz finished JCT. but even so i dun feel less stressed or more relaxed lehz. same difference. but seriosli la. everyone like keep lookin forward to today except me la. cuz i noe tt e end of exams is equal to pw+dance+more dance(outside) etc etc tt i could have ignored during e exams. baahx. sianz.

haha. and now i'm havin a headache due to too much TV. apperently my brain thinks tt a mere two and half hours of tv is too much of a strain for it. baahx.

hmmz. these few days think i'm apparently havin some problems. didn't sleep well for e past two weeks. dunno wats my problem. oh well. maybe i'll get sick and den i can rest!! wahaha...

okie
i've blogged and no longer feel so guilty. lol.

2006-06-29T21:30:00.000+08:00

love

2006-06-18T22:56:00.000+08:00

Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

saw this on a forwarded email. lol. shrugs.

chalet

2006-06-15T23:39:00.000+08:00

oops. nearli forgot that i wanted to blog. haha.

yups. went to 4k'05 class chalet yesterday. lol. quite few girls la. basicalli juz slacked and self-amused with shimin in the chalet from about 2 to 6 plus. haha. all cuz of the guys la. pang seh go Katong play pool. what a move. but i realised tt self-amusing can be quite fun. haha. but i tot tt first day was quite stupid cuz e point of a chalet is to spend time with ppl that you'll not be seeing for a long time or have not seen them for a long time rite. shimin is neither la. haha. we like see each other everyday in school during dance and will continue with that er routine even when school reopens. so actualli there's no zhong dian anymore la. haha. but we had fun anw. so who cares. lol.

at night rite. we didn't wanna sleep cuz e bed was damn dirty. it's been stepped on, rubbed on, etc etc. so weisheng, munhoe, shimin and i played cards throughout the whole night. lol. bout 3 plus i tink e onli one still in focus was weishing la. haha. i was juz throwing whatever colour i see on e floor and tho person who partnered me had like bout 90% chance of losing. lol. but anw not bad la. we 'dong' till 5 am plus but knocked out after tt. haha.

next morning woke at nine. ate mac breakfast. den went straight home to sleep. wahahaha. damn shiok. overall e chalet bit lame la. but quite enjoyed it. so yay. haha. today da chang jin alot of advertisements. i dun like. lol.

off to bed! nitez!

dead

2006-06-13T17:37:00.000+08:00

oohoo. i'm so dead. it's currently onli less than two more weeks to JCT and i onli juz started studyin. omg. so deadening. yea yea. juz completed revising elasticity of dd and ss and i'm damn sian. baahx. i'm so not in e mood to study and i'm really dead cuz i've gt chalet tml and the day after next and its shopping day on Fri. bye bye JCT. waahaha. i've decided to give up on Physics this time and focus on the other three subs.

oh ya and i wanna add that farah is damn bad.apparently i went for dance this mornin(again) and she kept correctin my english. baahx.

had bbq yesterday at pasir ris park. v sad cuz never go see sea. lol. anw i managed to lose my way in e park like merely five minutes after i stepped into that place. scared me la can. why i like walk andwalk but still never reach e little gate to downtown east. but in the end i was smart and i asked a guard of some resort for directions and i managed to find my way again. waahaha. baahx. walk till my ankle pain la. haha. crap.

hmmz felt damn alone durin the whole thing. maybe juz cuz i ap.. shrugs..

ooh ans sorry shimin. like pang seh u lidat. cuz e idea tt i'm not goin today was already v firmly implanted in my brain alreadi so i unconsciousli tot tt u'd noe oso. haha. sorri sorri. anw hope tml'd be fun. yay! can watch da chang jin together. they better not compete with me for the tv. waahaah.

sian

2006-06-09T23:10:00.000+08:00

wow. it's been a long time since i last blogged. 've been damn busy these days with dance.

i'm so mentally tired out man. thought can rest after production but there turned out to be a dance camp and have to choreograph cum teach foe a taiwan exchange thing. my gosh. i am so seriousli gonna die for jct can. baahx.

okie anw though tiring and very time consuming, the whole camp turned out to be quite a success. the games were fun, the pizza was nice, the lyrical jazz class was fun and e fish and chips were nice. lol. but the nicest nicest part is that many of us realli bonded during the whole planning and racking-our-brains process. there's alot of cute ppl in dance i realised. especialli zheya with her phobia of un-neat papers. lol.

the lyrical jazz class was quite hiong. maybe itz cuz i too long never realli dance le but anw now my neck, shoulders, and legs are aching la. horrendous. somemore never realli rested since production so my ankle is not healing. which is bad. i cant wear heels! omg.

ya and i realise i'm not realli in e mood to blog. lol. hope e bbq goes well. bb.

1st June

2006-06-01T21:50:00.000+08:00

waahaha. today's my birthday!! lol. baahx. crap.

but anw quite sad life la. birthday still gt to wake up earli go school choreograph some funny contemp dance for taiwan exchange trip ppl. realize tt i forgt how to dance contemp alreadi la. which is horrendous.

yups den after tt went SGH see jian wei. haiyo he so poor thing can. like damn pain lidat. but he's still as tico and bad to me. so i noe he's still ok. haha. but he sae he six days never wash hair la. ee. haha. k la. seriousli hope he'll get well real soon. oh and he remembered my birthday too. not bad. shud clap. haha.

ya den after tt went to bugis to meet my family for dinner. v nice. e food. haha. den after tt dey actualli wan go home. but i pulled dem to e neoprint shop. waahaha. so cute la. i love e photos. and dey quite sua gu(ignorant?). tot i not bad alreadi dey worse den ma. waahaha.

oh and i saw this guy with damn spiked hair la in e neo print shop. omg. he seriosli freaked me out can. u noe his hair is like 30cm long and he spikes it la! its so damn straight and pointy. oh my. can u imagine? gosh.

hmmz and lastly i wanna thank all those who smsed me and wished me happi birthday. haha. gan donged. haha. hugs!

2006-05-26T23:07:00.000+08:00

waahaha.itz been like ages since i blogged la. lol. these few days damn busy catchin up with my work. den still gt to prepare for june dance camp. den gt to stay back for exco nominations etc. haiz. suck la. tot after production will feel much better and free-er wan lohz. but in e end seem like e same la. sad life.

two days ago cuz i gt so much things to do and they made my brain so fogged up i wrote dem all down on my whiteboard. horrendous. itz ALOT can. i'm dead. june holiday's startin already and i dun even feel as if itz holiday. i feel stressed!

oh ya today went for dance exco interview. tink i screwed it up la. seniors shud be wanting to smack me or sth. tink i was quite qian bian la. after tt dey asked me do anythin i want to impress dem. totally had no idea wat to do la. den one senior suggested some chinese dance stunts or sth. so i tot of doin front flip(is der such a thing?) but i scared later hit e table and end up breakin e whole ankle wouldn't be nice so didn't la. haha. baahx. anythin la. anw get in den gd lohz. never get in den slack lohz. haha. dun worry! lol.

and i tink my ankle bone a bit dislocated. a bit la. i guess. sundy go get x-ray. haha. fun man. but itz gonna eat up my time again and i cant afford tt!! oh my. tink i'm goin crazy.

da chang jin not nice today. cuz bad thing happy to her. e bad ppl damn bad. i dun like. haha. okie i dunno wat to write le. bb! lol.

Dance concert

2006-05-19T23:50:00.000+08:00

waahaha!! its over. finally. lol. i'm free at last. at least for now. haha.

we went all out for our item man. i was juz shakin my ass off and smilin till my lipstick stuck to my teeth. haha. gross. but anw we did our bez and it'z funny how time flies when u're on stage.

yups. and i realli realli realli wanna thank all my frenz who were so concerned over my leg. i feel so cared for and loved and itz all thnx to u all tt i'm able to dance today. thnx.

after e concert first who came to see me on stage was shiyi and yijun. damn happy to see dem la. gt flower some more. shiyi is damn pro dancer la. my dance partner since we were in e same dance class. haha. she said it was nice so i'm happy! and honoured. haha.

den came kp, jean, xinyi, haryn. haha. those girls arhz. like so excited la. haha. i could see tt dey realli enjoyed e whole item and i'm thankful for that. realli. haha den dey on stage shoutin like bimbos lidat. all kp and karyn's fault la. lol.

den finally came darlin shell, and eunice and their bfs. my god. so diu lian la! those two girls keep sayin funny things den make me so embarrassed. haha. but i love dem. seriosli. but i dun like dem cuz dey gt bf. haha. kk kiddin. lol.

in conclusion, lol, i feel tt all our efforts have been worth it. e blood. e pain. e worries. e anger. e tiredness. e nervousness. and all e time tt we've put in everyday has paid off when i heard tt all of my frenz have enjoyed e dance and especially our item. actualli i was quite worried about our item. e year 2s are damn good. den we seriosli cocked up e tech run before tt. we had no energy everytime we went on stage and e blockin always had problem. so when dey said tt they felt tt our item was lively, i was so damn relieved. and happy. haha. yay!!

i tink i'm repeatin myself but i dun care. haha. thank you all e year one dancers for stayin united and pullin thru this together. we made it!! waahaha. and especialli to e voulevu ppl, thanx for puttin up with my conctant nagging and thank you for listenin to wat i say. i appreciate it. muacks!!

and now my leg is aching. hope nothin goes wrong. thank you everybody again for ur support. it made me strong..

bye ppl. my eyes are droopin. haha.

ps karyn jia you for e band concert. haha.

bad!!

2006-05-16T22:26:00.000+08:00

i am so dumb i did e most dumbest thing in e world today. I SPRAINED MY ANKLE. wat a move. two more days to my dance concert and i cant even walk properli now la. shit.

cant believe i'm so dumb. was outside e hall cleanin up e steps of voulevu. den i tink i was too agitated i walked backwards and WA LA. i stepped onto nothin. i lost my balance but at least managed to cling onto the railings. however i still ended up with my right leg in between e first and second ( i tink) steps. and lalala i now have a sprained ankle and its swollen. bad.

realli hope it heals properli by thurs night. baahx.

hope. hope..

2006-05-14T22:06:00.000+08:00

shit. today sucked. to e core.

earli mornin went dance till bout 12.30. after tt went to orchard to buy boa with shi min. actualli tot everythin wud go on well and be done quite fast cuz gt e money and noe which shop to go to. in e end e shop at far east stock haven come yet. apparently e shop owner is still in e airplane and haven arrive la. okie den fine i left my hp no. with e shop keeper and asked him to call me back as soon as he gets news frm his boss. we were den prepared to wait and study at e same time. den we realize tt we duno wat clour zaki wants. so we asked farah help us ask zaki. apparently zaki want us go arab street buy. by den alreadi 4.45 le la. actualli wan go Long Beach for dinner wan la. all because of this shit had to rush with sm to arab street. when we finally reached arab street we found out tt about half e shops are closed la. we had no choice but to continue lookin for e damn bloody shop. so we walked. and walked. and walked and we couldn't find e L sth L sth shop tt sells these horrible boas. so we walked all e way back out of e street. den i remembered farah sayin sth about sth Fatimah mosque. so we asked a passerby if there was such a mosque around. she said yes. juz walk straight frm here to der for about fifteen mins. if there were any small shops similar to e ones in arab street around e mosque? she said yes. der are similar shops along e street towards e mosque. so once again we walked. and walked. and walked. and lo and behold. ALL e shops were closed. except for some KTV and restaurants. and we still couldn't see a mosque around. so we walked all e way back to arab street, back to golden landmark hotel, and back to bugis.

so in short. damn bloody nothin was done at all e whole afternoon AND i gt scolded by my mother for wasting my time. PLUS i had to waste time doin all these shit when i could have went home to study for my econs test on Tues.

OMG i am so angry i better not have to waste my time doin all these things again tml. someone had better take over me man. but realli thank you shimin for being so damn calm all e while while i was shootin my mouth off. we realli tong gan gong ku man. oh ya and i wanna tell u tat ANOTHER escalator went against me k. in white sands. wats with today man. aarghh.

and once again i 've written a bitchy entry. no more da chang jin today. i've gt a headcahe.

bye ppl.

good mood. lol.

2006-05-13T23:21:00.000+08:00

okie i'm in quite a good mood today. wahaha.

in e mornin had bad cramps. v bad. dun even noe like wats happenin around me. budden ky sm marlene dey all vv nice and patient. thank you. haha.

den durin dance gt scared by zaki when he said tt we had alot of steps to clean up. walao frighten me la. tot i din do my job as choreographer well. baahx. but in e end he juz made some relatively small changes to e steps so i'm quite happy! haha.

den after dance had to rush all e way frm school to acs barker with shell and yy. went to newton circus for dinner. e fu jian mian quite nice la. but e price of e ice milo is horrendous!!$1.50 lehz. tsk tsk. and itz NOT NICE at all la. haiyo.

watched tj choir concert in acs barker. haha samantha darlin so cute la!! and i tink i could hear sa frm like a thousand miles away la. tsk tsk. still as pro. haha. i love sa and i realli hope she'll be okay.

baahx. and we still ended up daoing each other. when will this ever end.. ...

okie tml still gt dance in e mornin. hope it goes on well. haha. and ppl ur dance tix are with me alreadi! waahaha.

lazy

2006-05-12T16:02:00.001+08:00

lol. wanted to blog yesterday night but was quite lazy so didn't. lol.

anw yesterday dance prac was quite fun. first time dance until so high can. wahaaha. den e year 3 alumni dance pres came down watch us. quite stressed. after she see once den she sae we not flamboyous (?) enuff. so i v angry and i danced all out. lol. den horrendous zheya dey all shoutin like crazy at e side. lol. bit embarrassin la but for e sake of upholding voulevu i din care man. haha. so yada yada tt day had to fa alot of dian so on my way home my eyes were damn tired. lol.

and now i'm stuck in my stupid after ap gp tt chapter. forget watsit called le. dun even understand e egs given can. sianz.

but at least tonight gt da chang jin. yesterday channel u v horrendous go and take over e show with dunno wat concert thing. den v sad.

okie i dunno wat to write le. baahx. and thnx for taggin ppl.

oh ya i forgt to add tt i've finished readin e half blood prince le. sobz..

2006-05-12T16:02:00.000+08:00

ap

2006-05-08T22:11:00.000+08:00

dunno y read le like v sad lidat lehz. baahx.

okie dun care me. so anw today had chem spa. quite ok i guess. was quite tired so not really v jin zhang. broke a pipette due to the hazy fog in my brain. haha. but anw i din care la. after tt everythin went on quite well. until e calculations part. did e whole damn thing wrong happily till i realise i left a part of VERY important info out. so had to redo e whole damn thing in ten mins. quite pro la. heng heng gt an answer and i tink itz correct! waahaha..

oh ya and i oso bit sad cuz dis time tj gt dance concert.gt me! doh i dance v little. lol. but who cares. sad not cuz of tt la but cuz like alot of my ahs frenz not goin. sobs.

this few weeks dance almost everyday. v tired and spent, so mood not v good. den juz now like bit ap din bother to socialise with other ppl. sorrie.. but i realli din have e energy to be high and i din wanna act high so juz ap-ed with shimin at e side lohz. waahaha.

okie lazy type le. feelin sad. and moody. and ap. and bitchy. and stressed. baahx. this is bad.
ok i'm off. to continue reading my Harry Ptter and the half blood prince for the third time. waahaha... bb.

indulge!!

2006-05-05T21:45:00.000+08:00

lol. had phy lec test today. totally screwed la. not surprised. dun even noe if i can get 5 and above. lol. pathetic man. baahx. seem to be gettin more and more stupid lehz. especially for chem. what the hell. this is bad.

anw today went sumo house for lunch(again). ate fattenin things. i noe i shudn't eat them la. but couldn't control myself. so juz heck. then went bedok cc for dance prac from 2.30pm to 7pm i tink. ya. quite fun la doh. had to do some spastic actions. but when about twenty people do them together it becomes fun and cool. waahaha. e screamin part was fun. lol.

oh ya and i would realli realli like to thank e voulevu(?) ppl for supportin me and most importantly, for liking the dance tt i choreo-ed! waahaha. Gan DOng!!

and i'm so happy cuz i finally can watch da chang jin for the full one hr le. waahaha. shuang!! always gt to pull myself away frm e tv at ten thirty(bedtime). juz so as to prevent myself from havin headache e next day la. baahx. if headache doesn't visit me so often jiu hao le. i can indulge myself in da chang jin lohz. bleh..

okie so today no dance in NAFA+no school tml=no need wake up so early=one whole hr of da chang jin. waahah.

time for da chang jin. bb! waahaha..

2006-05-03T21:33:00.000+08:00

lo. this is funny. i nearly screwed mine up and now u're blamin me. oh well.
after so long i tink it shud be time we stopped playin mind games and affectin each other rite but apparently we seem to like hurtin one another... and i love my class too for ur info.

baahx this is so not goin e way i want it to. but then again, shud have gotten used to it by now huh.

okie anw i actualli wanted blog about my headache k. itz horrendous. and i wanted to blog about this darlin fren called eunice. it had been so damn long since i've HEARD her voice la. missed talkin to her. waahaha. so i called her and psychoed her to come for my dance concert. and for ur info itz on 19 May at kallang theatre. starts around seven or eight. not sure.wahaha. ya and so she agreed. lol. our teacher wanted us to sell like 20 each la but i'm not realli gonna be tt crazy cuz y would my frenz wanna spend so much juz to see me on stage for two dances? baahx. never mind.

oh ya and i'm realli sad cuz i seriosli din wan things to turn out this way. inevitable?

woohoo. and i'm gonna screw up for tml's econs quizz AND fri's physics test man. waahaha.

blehx

baahx

2006-05-01T22:30:00.000+08:00

today went far east with voulevou ppl (is tt how u spell it?)
lol. quite fun la. but i tink i look horrendous in dresses. unlike sharon. lol.
she looks damn bloody nice in ANYTHIN la can. baahx.

k i'm not in e mood to blog anythin rite now. byezz..

numb

2006-04-30T14:08:00.000+08:00

sometimes it seems that i realli feel nothin no more.

maybe it's cuz itz realli over or maybe cuz i'm so numb i'm supposed to feel nothin aymore.

wasn't me who wanted to be numb

but i had to be to prevent me frm bleeding again and again

've built a wall around my heart

a fragile wan though

but however fragile it is

i promise to keep it strong cuz it has to be

still dunno if i've done the right thing so many months ago

shrugs

dun wanna think about it cuz it only brings back pain

but then again, maybe feelin pain is better than feelin nothin at all

deep into the night

memories sometimes come flooding back

i welcome them with open arms so that i will feel sth other than numbness

time has healed (mostly)

and they have become more and more seldom

i guess its a good thing

i know letting it go should be e right thing to

i shall wait

although it'll take a long time

for e scar to heal

i hope it will

lol.i'm pro. and thank you those who tagged. i feel loved!! wahaha..

tired

2006-04-28T23:17:00.000+08:00

i am so tired. of dance. i tink itz e most time consumin pdp in the world la. there are seven days in a week and i got to go for dance for like SEVEN days. luckily my mama ground me tml la. so now itz reduced to a bloody SIX. like wats e diff. baahx!

oh ya. today was in a damn bad mood. juz din realli bother to talk in case i bit someone's head off. couldn't figure out y at first but later realised when tokin to shimin tt itz partly cuz of zaki and oso partly cuz nobody tagged. feel so unloved but nvm. baahx.

anw one definite good thing that came out of dance is my frenz. went to Sumo with shimin and yanhing before dance. realized tt me and shimin had alot in common. i enjoyed talkin to her. we thought back on precious moments and also about some regrets that we have of our life. hmmz. funny how two frenz who never realli gt the chance to know each other when we were in e same class for two whole years would suddenly realise how close they would get to be in jc even though we're no longer in the same class. fate.. lol.

oh and i realise zaki's actualli not tt bad.

and my whole body's aching like hell. dancing without warming up plus 2.4km test definitely dun go well with each other. =<

oh ya and yesterday was darlin ah lin's birthday. i love her and i miss her ALOT! muackxx!!

yay. i blogged! waahaha.

Woohoo

2006-04-26T22:19:00.000+08:00

Waahaha. this is crap lehz. made this juz now at skool juz b4 dance at the hub. thnx to darlin kee yann. haha.

oh ya talkin bout dance rite, juz wanna anounce that i'm now formerly BACK in dance. lol. went to tj choir prac once. budden i seriousli cannot make it. i went one lesson den e next lesson e pres made an anouncement for us to memorise scores e followin MONDAY and i still din even noe how to sind e songs la. how to memorise. waaha. wat a move.

oh ya so i'm back in dance and i'm feelin terribly irresponsible for being such a fickle minded and indecisive person. baahx. always din like irresponsible ppl and now i'm one of them. haiz sad man. but anw shall try not to let history repeat itself. yay.

oh and back to the creation of this blog. whole thing was created my darlin friend lam kee yann frm cg12/06 (including the skin). such great diff between us man. haha. and so hence e ridiculous web address and everythin else in this blog that seems funny. haha.

oh ya back to dance again. lol. realli v surprised and glad when the others welcomed me back. tot they would label me as traitor or sth but they din. so yea. haha. i love them although i dun like them for being so gd at hip hop. lol.

i think i gotta slowly explore this thing. looks complicated. but never mind there always hatechips to rely on. haha. although she can be quite assholic at times.

oh yay claps for such a long entry for the first time. waahaha. i dunno whether i'm supposed to ask ppl to tag since i've never in my life tried taggin b4.. lol. shrugs.. thnx for readin this crap. byes.. waahahaha.

2006-04-26T14:14:00.000+08:00

Goodie morning Im mengie's good friend called hatechips (recall meng ai is called lovechimps? HEHE) I believe this blog will never last longer than a day because she probably cannot recall how to use the blogger site at all! TSKTSKTSK. God Bless my beloved lovechimps! Ciao.

2006-04-26T14:13:00.000+08:00

HO HO! I LOVE MENG AI!