Monday, October 20, 2008
damn demoralised.
got back my OB case analysis today and i got a freaking B. worst in my group. thats when expectancy theory and equity theory comes into play. demoralising. ...
feel like shit these days. no mood to study. dun feel good about school. dun really feel belonged.
maybe i think too much. but.. u can't fault me for trying too hard. think that's the problem.. i'm trying too hard..
on the other hand.. fairytales.. i see it happening to some of my friends.. will it ever happen to me? same things keep repeating over and ovcr again.. maybe it's my fault.. i protect myself too hard..
when will i be able to break away from this feeling... it's starting to kill me.. having to watch whatever i do and say.. having to do things that i dun feel like doing.. yearning for things that i can't have and throwing away things that i have.. wanna be a carefree person.. emo bad..
haha
miss my friends.. dreamt of kang, kee, karyn juz now.. sad that in order to lead u happier life in the future we're living in so much unhappiness now.. irony..
i miss tj dance.. i miss zhe ya and nadine especially..
i miss regina my darlin dance partner.. miss her bad.. miss the comfort and closeness we've shared for the past ten or more years.. why did we lose it? the best dance partner ever.. same moves same timing chemistry unbeatable.. hope she's well..
tons of work waiting for me.. know that many others are having it worse than me.. hold on everyone but for how long more.. this is gonna happen over and over again.. a never ending cycle.. what's the point?
haha.. why so emo? i dunno.. maybe due to too long period of lack of sleep.. incoherent.. but i'm somewhat glad.. too serious half of the time.. caring more about what others think than what i think..
tsk tsk..
enough of emo-ing.. stats tutorial anyone?
ps. anyone knows the meaning of life can tell me? :/
[loved you`]
at 8:10 PM
