Sunday, January 25, 2009
random random..
today (since itz already past 12am) 's new year eve. another year passed.. some updates:)
Academic: Struggling like shit for FM and Accounting.. goodness.. i feel like Physics all over again.. u know where ur filled with question marks regardless of how many times u reread ur lec notes and textbook and u know that ur really hopeless in it when u see tutorial answers but still dun understand them.. pathetic.. oh well.. shall try my best and try to keep a teeny weeny more optimistic since my life will be filled with unhappy things over and and over again.. think i shud get used to it by now huh.. Bus law seems fun (relative).
New year's here but contemplating on whether to bring my textbooks around since i'd just rot in ppl's house anw..:/
Life: Aherm attached..
Busy: Filled with dance dance and more dance. Chronological order: Chingay, Hall Dance, JDC Fusion, JDC AH Li Lang( CHinese Dance), Zhang's dance
meng(4). These are the dance items i'm currently involved in in NTU. Had dance prac from MOn to Sat everyday last week.. best..
but i'm still not getting lighter.. damn..
Other than dance, there's FOC bus mag.. feel so ineffecient.. blooody hell.. hope we'd do a good job though.. can the flower ppl pls reply me asap!!!!!
rant ran rant.. tutorials tutorials readings readings..
thank goodness my darlin is an optimistic person.. prevents me from falling into the black hole.. keeps me sane..
on a happier note, went dance this morning then to Chinatown then to Clark Quay then to Reunion dinner.. wahaha.. superwoman.. quite tiring budden felt/am feeling quite happy:)
okie. tired. shall chiong tutorial tml.. Eunice is back!!! mwahahaha.. budden she now types her msgs in Chinese my goodness.. (since she went China for internship for five months)
realise my entry is like damn incoherent and jumbled up.. lol.. sorry budden a large part of my brain has already gone into hibernation mode.. till next time!! Happy Chinese Niu Year:)
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at 12:37 AM
Sunday, November 09, 2008
waa bloody hell. i feel so fuckingly stressed up. feel so helpless cuz i know i've ten thousand things to study but insifficient time to do so. feel so helpless cuz i've gt totally zero confidence for the exams that are coming up. wat the hell. i've gt a feeling that even working hard may not guarantee good results. wats even worse tt i'm not working hard enough. sat burnt up cuz of dance and tuition. and then today burnt cuz i'm so tired i can't concentrate. and then i think so much when i try to sleep that i wake up feeling even worse cuz i dun feel better plus i've wasted my freaking time sleeping. shit.
aaaarrrggghhh. ranting cuz i hope i'd feel better after this. can't wait for freaking exams to finish. dance performance. dance exams. scchool exams. tuitions... am i getting weaker? used to be able to cope with so much in the past. was totally incontrol of my time and commitments.. wats happening. getting dumber maybe. aiya. watever.
hate to bitch but yea. watever la. getting back to my studies already. suck.
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at 4:37 PM
Monday, October 20, 2008
damn demoralised.
got back my OB case analysis today and i got a freaking B. worst in my group. thats when expectancy theory and equity theory comes into play. demoralising. ...
feel like shit these days. no mood to study. dun feel good about school. dun really feel belonged.
maybe i think too much. but.. u can't fault me for trying too hard. think that's the problem.. i'm trying too hard..
on the other hand.. fairytales.. i see it happening to some of my friends.. will it ever happen to me? same things keep repeating over and ovcr again.. maybe it's my fault.. i protect myself too hard..
when will i be able to break away from this feeling... it's starting to kill me.. having to watch whatever i do and say.. having to do things that i dun feel like doing.. yearning for things that i can't have and throwing away things that i have.. wanna be a carefree person.. emo bad..
haha
miss my friends.. dreamt of kang, kee, karyn juz now.. sad that in order to lead u happier life in the future we're living in so much unhappiness now.. irony..
i miss tj dance.. i miss zhe ya and nadine especially..
i miss regina my darlin dance partner.. miss her bad.. miss the comfort and closeness we've shared for the past ten or more years.. why did we lose it? the best dance partner ever.. same moves same timing chemistry unbeatable.. hope she's well..
tons of work waiting for me.. know that many others are having it worse than me.. hold on everyone but for how long more.. this is gonna happen over and over again.. a never ending cycle.. what's the point?
haha.. why so emo? i dunno.. maybe due to too long period of lack of sleep.. incoherent.. but i'm somewhat glad.. too serious half of the time.. caring more about what others think than what i think..
tsk tsk..
enough of emo-ing.. stats tutorial anyone?
ps. anyone knows the meaning of life can tell me? :/
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at 8:10 PM
Sunday, October 19, 2008
I blog..
Glad we met out tonight. The right decision apparently.
Tied up some loose nots.. Din noe we had so many.. lol. But
Really glad we did..
Thanks for understanding..
Thanks for not running away..
Thanks for listening to me..
Thanks for being so patient..
Thanks for being willing to open ur heart..
Thanks for complaining about wat i did..
Thanks for being my friend all over again..
Hurt we've gone through, misunderstandings, it's been a gruelling four years..
We took four years to reach where we are today..
I'm glad we made it.. Apparently we've grown quite a bit..
Hope the emotional cycles are evened up. For now..
:)
Nothing else to say but a million and one thanks for tonight.
And finally really. Thanks for accepting and understanding my decision..
No tears:)
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at 2:07 AM
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
me, shell, eunice in e cab (1st day!!)
three of us in tut-tut:)
sizzler and my medium
(love their salad whahaha)
me and my
shou cheng~ betty booop!!
photo in the very
fu gu toilet
(1st day dinner)
lol. yes yes i'm blogging surprise surprise. :)
had light cough and flu last tues i think so i gt lazy and then decided to take leave from work. budden unexpecedly the cough and flu came full blown the next day i went to work and it/they never left till today. din wanna waste money so decided to be my own doc/my mum decided to be my doc so i started eating some brown cough medicine tt i tink all of u shud have eaten at least once in ur whole life. yea so anw it din work and my chest started to feel kind of tight whenever i breathe so i've decided to see a doctor. tml. haha. it kind of freaked me off and i'm worried i'd end up with lung cancer or faint suddenly in the mrt so i guess a trip to e doc is necessary huh. anw i dun feel like workin so yea. :)
gonna be bit random today cuz it's been a long time since i blogged and der seem to be alot of things in my mind i wanna sae. yea. so anw today's apparently michelle chua's birthday. lol. apparently i forgt to call and sing 'happy birhthday' to her like i intended to. no excuses. yea so anw it wasn't until she called me and asked me: do u remember wat day is it today ? did e realisation hit me. lol! we're quits! haha..
went thailand er think two weeks ago with michelle and eunice:) the three of us slept in the same room(in my uncle's house) and poor michelle had to sleep on the floor. lol. but she seemed quite happy doing that so haha i din attempt to invite her to share our bed. lol. think e toilet's gonna break down after the our excessive usage all of a sudden. haha. bought alot of clothes. din bother to count. three bags. one purse. one belt. two pairs of shoes and of course lingerie! lol. ate far too much over there. couldn't resist it since the food was good and like damn bloody cheap. so too bad. din even bother to control myself so yea. no one to blame for my erm slight weight increase. haha.
anws above are some of the pics taken in thailand:)
so tt brings me to e next pt. apparently i'm trying to lose weight. again. since someone pointed out tt i've grown fatter thank you very much. seriously tries u noe. budden met up with my frenz for dinner on sat and sun. then boss treated us to pizza and kfc for lunch yst. nearly succeeded today since i ate healthy fish porridge for luch and healthy yu pian tang jia fan (fish soup plus rice) for dinner. budden e big plan failed once i walked pass and then into e bakery. haha. finished a whole yam bread immediately after that. very yummy but it's left me with guilt:(
sad life.. haha.
ok enuff of food. trying to decide between nbs and smu business.. pros and cons for both.. budden seem to be a bit afraid of smu.. anyone gt any suggestions? which one'd be better for me? blehz..
and lastly before i go immerse myself in my bang bang tang, for those who are damn bored and'd like to share my interest(wahahaha) go youtube and type 敖犬 (ao quan) k? have fun haha. bubbye!
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at 9:54 PM
Sunday, January 20, 2008
pictures from our outing to pasir ris beach. ( farewell for joe and weicheng and to their hair as well.. awww...) ok i'm tired. haha. adios!
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at 1:04 PM
Saturday, January 19, 2008
hi ppl pai seh. haha.
feelin emo today.
anws just a quick update. currently working as a waitress in a new cafe restaurant called Fresh Origin which is somewhere between clarke quay and raffles mrt. monday to friday. sat is reserved for dance. school dance in the morning then tutor my cousin then dance at NAFA. sunday's rest day. talkin bout school dance, we(alumni) are gonna put up 2 items for this year Reverie IV. gonna be on the 22nd March 2008, a sat. come watch kkz? haha. love dancing with the TJ dancers. we rock man.
gonnna fall sick soon i think. weak body plus too many late night- early morning combo. down with a sore throat which will most prob translate into a cough tml. oh well.
mind's in a twirl right now. not one who can act well. dun even know what i want. never and not able to understand. when will this ever come to a close? mum talked to me about it. asked me not to be foolish. shall try to work on it. not easy.
oh ya and lastly, merry x;mas to all who tagged. haha. sorry for late reply. lol. just in case i forget i have a blog again, happy new year to all! gong xi gong xi gong xi ni ah!
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at 11:16 PM
